We Are Slaves

We are slaves to our flaws
We are slaves to what we do
and what we don’t do.
To how we perceive the world
and how it really is.
We are slaves to our morals
and to the ever rolling boulder of time.
We slave our way out of ignorance
only to again to be enslaved by our knowledge.
We are slaves in a game of dice
None of us are free

The Secret of Giving Thanks

The Secret of Giving Thanks
Thank you sun for shining so,
Warming us in your brilliant glow.
Thank you moon for your gentle light,
Bringing goodness to the darkest night.
Thank you earth, moist and cool,
Natures most basic tool.
Thank you trees for being so tall and wise
Gardians of the earth, creatures of one thousand eyes.
Thank you rock so patient and still,
In a world so full of change nothing breaks your will.
Thank you eagle, so stunning in flight,
For inspiring me to soar to a greater height.
Thank you snow for your white winterland,
Your beauty causing my very soul to expand.
Thank you, my hand, for wherever we go
You are constantly helpful, be it high or low.
Thank you wind, whether a gust or a breeze,
You who tease the ocean waves and excite the leaves.
Thank you water, so pure and so sweet,
Your heavenly touch differs for everyone you meet.
Thank you cloud, so lovely you are
A silent friend, an embrace from afar.
Thank you flowers for brightening my day
Enchanting the senses in every way.
Thank you shadow for following me
Wherever my sorry self cares to be.
Thank you stars for being here; so delicate, so right,
A blessing in this mortal world, immortal starlight.
Thank you for showing me, world, from mountains to river banks,
That we don’t give thanks because we are happy
We are happy because we give thanks

another midnight poem

this is one of my midnight poems, that writing that i scrabble around trying to find my notebook and pencil in the middle of the night for.  i've been typing up my journals, so you might be seeing more of these soon...

***

How many of us smile for the cameras, 

But weep alone at night?

How many of us wonder if anyone really cares?

How many of us experience heartbreak and cannot tell a soul?

What isolates each one of us from another?

Are our feelings silly or irrelevant?

Why am I ashamed?

Quote of the Day 16

"It looks like Hello Kitty on steroids" -- Mum (in reference to these japanese stuffed animals)

"Oh, shut up.  I hate listening to people." -- Linda Presti (my church youth group leader, hence why this quote was so uncharacteristic and amusing coming from her.)

quote of the Day 15: science style

"If I were a DNA replication enzyme I'd be helicase so i could unzip your genes." -- Noah Huyette

it's funny because it makes sense (moderately, that is)

this made me laugh

a lot

:)

quote of the Day 14

i've been remiss in my quotes of the day, so here's a whole load of them from the past week or more. people say the most fascinating things... :)

"I don't like cottage cheese much.  It's not even really cheese.  It's like 'mmm, white chunky mush'." -- Indy (Josh)

"If you were frozen mashed potatoes, where would you be?" -- Mum

"Pittsburg is where everyone thinks they're normal, but they're crazy.  New York is where everyone thinks they're crazy but their normal." -- The Apartment 

"And San Francisco, well, that's just a melting pot." -- Shane (in a discussion about our favorite movies, this was his addition to the quote from The Apartment)

"That's the way it crumbles -- cookie-wise." -- The Apartment

"Have a beer"

"No, no, my body is a temple."

"No, it's an amusement park." -- Hellboy 2 (because dad bought it on a whim and this amused me)

"That's not random, this is random." -- Shane

"What?" -- Caity

"QUACK!!!" -- Shane

"You should shave your head and say 'I want to be a man!'" -- James

"That's a good solution for everything." -- El Bitz

"Tadpoles have big butts."

"Even this is PDA," (i put my arm around shane)

"Really? I thought that was more of a BFF" -- shane

Wednesday November 19th. we didn't even make 6 months

you know when you lose something precious, but you don't quite comprehend how much you'd become used to having it in your life?

it hasn't quite sunk in yet.

for better or worse, time moves on.

This entertains me

Quote of the Day 13

"Friends are fish, not food" -- Mrs. Martin

"Jorge, the oldest and only Chinese moose seller in Canada" -- Brianna, Kristina, Caity (don't ask-- there's no real explanation)

"The music's slightly off... but it's meant to be.  That's what gives it it's beauty" -- James Gusse

I met with the 4th grade girl, her older sister, and her parents today in the career center.  i start wednesday :)

Quote of the Day 12

"That muffin is half my face!" -- Lauren Penya

"That's more than half your face dear." -- me

"That's like half your body mass" -- monica B.

"SHUT UP!" -- Lauren

"I had a minor firecracker problem." -- Mr. Jacobs

these both made me laugh a long time; the muffin WAS huge, and lauren is extremely light.  Mr.Jacobs was referring to how he lost his hearing in his right ear.  hehehehehehe

i sat down at the computer at 11 and now it's 12:30

goodness the computer is distracting

well, this weekend's been awesome; i've gotten a lot done and enjoyed it thoroughly.  read, sung, seen my sister, gone to youth group, hung out with sarah, spontaneously danced a bit.  only thing that could've made it better would be seeing Nathan.

*sigh*

well, Gin is flying back to Washington this morning; we dropped her and julian (her boyfriend) off at the airporter this morning. on the way back mum did grocery shopping while i got a haircut (long overdue).  it's short and poofy, and i feel like i'm someone in a murder mystery in the 1920's.  just something about that style...

tinkerbell

my cat's been lying in the same place on my parents bed all day.  no joke.  she's rolled over a few times, and she'll preen a bit, but she's always resettles in the exact same spot.  she'll probably get up and there'll be an indented nest of cat fur where she was

i sort of admire the regal attitude of cat's.  don't get me wrong, it's a horrid attribute in a human, but with cats... snobbery just befits them.  that manner of living which says the world revolves around me and i am so beautiful, why aren't you all flocking to pet me?

:)

i love that kitty

best day ever

today was spectacular

we did fake interviews today, and i was trying to "obtain the position of a tutor." afterward, Mr.Chantler (the career center man) asked me if i was seriously interested in tutoring.  when i said yes, i told me he knew of a family looking for a tutor in english and math for their 3rd grade daughter.  I'VE BEEN OFFERED A JOB!!! 

:D

very excited.  i've always wanted to teach.  i was so excited that when i came home i started pulling age-appropriate books off the shelves and stacking them.  

harmonized at lunch with heather, el bitz, theresa merino, shane, and james gusse. so awesome. and then on the way home some really cool songs came on the radio ("made to love" by tobyMac and "Icecream" by Sarah McGlaclan) and i bought them off itunes.  

the picture is of me in a fuzzy coat mum bought me a while ago, and just got here in the mail. it's REALLY FUZZY.  

oh

my 

god

my sister just walked in the door

back from washington

she wasn't supposed to be here 'til tomorrow....

YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

going to go visit

peace love and fuzzy coats :)

the best part of AP biology

"The cells will either go into a G0 phase, being dormant, or they will commit suicide." -- Kaela Connors

This made me laugh.  A LOT.  Those study sessions are my favorite part of AP Biology.  Today the topics of interest were new vocabulary words (more like sound effects) to go with certain processes, Dalton's inability to pronounce the word "chromatids," the warriors basketball game which they convinced Mr. Neville to play on the TV, and Noah's crazy jewish grandfather.  

:D

awesomeness

the next president of the united states

Barack Obama has been elected the next president of the United States.
he just gave one of the best speeches i've ever heard in my life. very moving (I've got the chants of "yes we can" echoing in my head) Mc Cain also gave a very gracious speech welcoming obama, which i appreciated.

i've got that feeling. that feeling where your whole body tingles and you just know something great will happen
I hope he does what he said he'd do.
i hope our nation changes for the better.

good deeds of the day

i visited my cousin Jamie Lyn at her dorm at Davis today, and mum and i took her out to lunch. afterward i we went straight to my church, which was putting on the harvest carnival for the old folks at Avalon Assisted Living. i arrived very early (stupid daylight savings) so i helped to set things up. the actual carnival itself went well -- the old folks were pleasant, even though a bit odd. there were also some families there -- children and grandchildren. they ran around screaming, being adorable, and adding to the general bedlam. i sang some oldies and joked with sarah loftus, who was in the booth beside mine, and shouted for song requests. it was rather marvelous.

on the way back from the carnival (dad drove me home) we noticed an elderly man walking along Arnold Drive. it was getting dark and the wind was brisk -- dad went in a circle and offered him a ride. apparently he was walking to safeway to buy dog food for his pet. he told us all about his time as a quarterback for a college team, and we chatted about his dog. he was a friendly old man. it was decent of dad to give him a ride.

i'm left feeling better today than i have in ages. it just goes to show that doing the kind thing for someone else is the truly rewarding action

this is halloween

i've decided to post the lyrics to "This is Halloween" from the Nightmare Before Christmas by Tim Burton. Because we were randomly bursting into song while trick-or-treating, but i couldn't remember the whole song. it's awesome.

SHADOW
Boys and girls of every age
Wouldn't you like to see something strange?

SIAMESE SHADOW
Come with us and you will see
This, our town of Halloween

PUMPKIN PATCH CHORUS
This is Halloween, this is Halloween
Pumpkins scream in the dead of night

GHOSTS
This is Halloween, everybody make a scene
Trick or treat till the neighbors gonna die of fright
It's our town, everybody scream
In this town of Halloween

CREATURE UNDER BED
I am the one hiding under your bed
Teeth ground sharp and eyes glowing red

MAN UNDER THE STAIRS
I am the one hiding under your stairs
Fingers like snakes and spiders in my hair

CORPSE CHORUS
This is Halloween, this is Halloween

VAMPIRES
Halloween! Halloween! Halloween! Halloween!
In this town we call home
Everyone hail to the pumpkin song

MAYOR
In this town, don't we love it now?
Everybody's waiting for the next surprise

CORPSE CHORUS
Round that corner, man hiding in the trash can
Something's waiting now to pounce, and how you'll scream

HARLEQUIN DEMON, WEREWOLF, AND MELTING MAN
Scream! This is Halloween
Red 'n' black, slimy green

WEREWOLF
Aren't you scared?

WITCHES
Well, that's just fine
Say it once, say it twice
Take the chance and roll the dice
Ride with the moon in the dead of night

HANGING TREE
Everybody scream, everybody scream

HANGED MEN
In our town of Halloween

CLOWN
I am the clown with the tear-away face
Here in a flash and gone without a trace

SECOND GHOUL
I am the "who" when you call, "Who's there?"
I am the wind blowing through your hair

OOGIE BOOGIE SHADOW
I am the shadow on the moon at night
Filling your dreams to the brim with fright

CORPSE CHORUS
This is Halloween, this is Halloween
Halloween! Halloween! Halloween! Halloween!
Halloween! Halloween!

CHILD CORPSE TRIO
Tender lumplings everywhere
Life's no fun without a good scare

PARENT CORPSES
That's our job, but we're not mean
In our town of Halloween

CORPSE CHORUS
In this town

MAYOR
Don't we love it now?

MAYOR WITH CORPSE CHORUS
Everyone's waiting for the next surprise

CORPSE CHORUS
Skeleton Jack might catch you in the back
And scream like a banshee
Make you jump out of your skin
This is Halloween, everyone scream
Won't ya please make way for a very special guy

Our man Jack is king of the pumpkin patch
Everyone hail to the Pumpkin King now

EVERYONE
This is Halloween, this is Halloween
Halloween! Halloween! Halloween! Halloween!

CORPSE CHILD TRIO
In this town we call home
Everyone hail to the pumpkin song
EVERYONE
La la-la la, Halloween! Halloween! (etc.)